Of lechon paksiw and cold feet..

I am definitely, most assuredly bored.

I look at my phone and not even one text message! Arrggghhh!! So here I am again, writing down my thoughts, my ramblings, my rants, etc..

No more proxies. No more Friendster! No more meebo! Life is so sad! I hate you IT people!

I had lechon paksiw for dinner. It's actually my 15-min break but I was sooo hungry sobrah!! So I ate. The pantry's colder than a witch's tit by the way. I was freezing my ass off while I was eating my lechon paksiw.

Now I am back to work. Done with eating. Only had two calls since what? 6PM? The first one was about this guy who wanted to use the TALK-2-TOSHIBA link as a way of calling internationally for FREE! Geez! "Sir, it will only connect you to TOSHIBA! Not other people!" Talk about being stupid! <sigh>

<checking my phone>

Still no messages. CRUD!

I'm COLD! Brrrr!!! I need a HUG!!!

The life of a chatter..

if strangers meet 

if strangers meet
life begins-
not poor not rich
(only aware)
kind neither
nor cruel
(only complete)
i not not you
not possible;
only truthful
-truthfully,once
if strangers(who
deep our most are
selves)touch:
forever

(and so to dark)

                    -  e.e. cummings

Living next door to the God of Love (.. and not getting any)

Love seeketh not itself to please, nor for itself hath any care, but for another gives its ease, and builds a Heaven in Hell's despair. 

I'm in the office again. The heat is stifling. These are the days that I appreciate the coolness of "floor".

Tita Ana just got back today from Bicol. Hahahah.. Maingay na naman.. Not that I'm complaining. I'd rather be in a house that's noisy and loud than a silent house. That gives me the creeps! Anyways, she'll be going back to Bicol around the 25th.

On the other side of things, well, we're still talking, Matt and I. There was this one instance in our conversation last night that he mentioned, "Best, pano pag niligawan kita?" Yeah right. <sarcasm> I asked him what'll he do with his current GF. He told me he'll break up with her. AS IF! Oh well, I think he was just kidding around anyways.

<sigh>

I'll be 25 next month. I am not getting any older. I don't have a BF. I'm living by myself here in Manila. I miss my mom, my dad and even my pesky younger sisters.. Life would be much better if I have someone. Yeah. If I have someone. Someone who'll be there for me. Someone who'll ask me how I am. Someone who'll take me shopping <smiles>. Someone who's pleasing to the eye (mangangarap na nga lang ako, eh di lulubusin ko na di bah?).

<sigh>

I'm not pretty. Far from it. I am wallowing in self-pity.. CRUD! <sigh>

The huge question is "Paano ba ako magkaka-boyfriend ulit?"

My original sin…

I was supposed to upload Way Back Into Love.. but then I started singing this song in my head.. Elton John's Original Sin. Mandy Moore was in the music video I think..

Haayy.. it's what I'm feeling right now.. Oh well… How can I tell you that I am falling in love with my best friend?

(Note: I haven't been in love before so I might be just falling in love with the idea of being in love)

"Original Sin"

Oh, it's carnival night
And they're stringing the lights around you
Hanging paper angels
Painting little devils on the roof

Up in the balcony
All the Romeo's are bleeding for your hand
Blowing theater kisses
Reciting lines they don't understand