Can I call tech support for this?

Matt and I fought today.

I didn't post it. Maybe because I don't want to scrutinize every aspect of that fight. Maybe because if I really look under everything with a microscope, I'd find out that I was the one at fault.

Matt's sick today. He's coming down with a bad cold. I told him to sleep it off and drink lots of water and to drink his meds. <sigh> It got so out of hand that I said I won't bother him anymore. Period. He replied "Best, I'm sick ok? If you wanna leave.. Sige.." (Matt and I have this spoken agreement that I wouldn't leave him no matter what happens. I always keep my word.)

What can I do? I'm not sure of my feelings anymore. I feel trapped. Being with Matt takes a toll on me rather emotionally. He gets rather childish when he's with me. <sigh>

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!! CRUD!!!!

Ilongga in the City..

Nearing midnight..

In Iloilo, I could hear the crickets singing their songs. In Manila, all I can hear are the multitude of vehicles passing by - the cacophony of noises that are inherent with a city that never sleeps.

In Iloilo, I could eat "real" food. In Manila, I dine.

In Iloilo, I could hear my parents' voices arguing good-naturedly. In Manila, all I can argue with is myself.

In Iloilo, the sun doesn't shine so brightly, the wind cools your brow. In Manila, the heat is oppressing.

I miss ILOILO.

What is love?

What is love? I remember this question every time I sign those autograph books that were so popular way back in grade school. I used every answer in the book. Love makes the world go round. Love is.. blah.. blah.. blah..  

When do you know that it's really love? I don't know personally.. Is it because every text message from him makes your heart skip a beat? Is it because every time you see his face, it takes your breath away? Is it because you know that you'd do every thing in your power to make that person happy? Or is it because a mere thought makes you smile?

And then it makes us go back to the real question.. what is love?