just today.. thoughts..

After a couple of days of blog silence, yours truly is back! I say before and I still say it now, I HATE YOU IT PEOPLE!!!!

It's the first day of my work week. I am still asleep. My body feels like it's asleep. I need my daily dose of caffeine! DAMN!

Troa and I were supposed to meet up yesterday but due to some untoward circumstances (naks! kailangan lang naman nyang ihatid ang tita nya sa Pampanga!), di natuloy. Kainis! ARRGGHHH!!!

Hmm.. A lot has happened since my birthday. Of all the days na magkaLIQUOR BAN, birthday ko pa! TAE! ARGGGHH!!! Oh well, so what happened was I met up with Erwin that night and we went to his cousin's place to play cards. The place was near St. Luke's Hospital in E. Rod. Before that, Deedee and I went to Pancake House - Ali Mall to celebrate and at the same time, to do some SHOPPING!! I bought two Über nice loose fitting pants from a tiangge in Farmer's and two tees from F&H. I wanted to buy myself a pique polo tee but unfortunately I can't find one that fits! <sigh> Moving on, we played pusoy dos and tong-its. He lost! <laughs> I guess, I was planning to sleep with him.. It's my birthday! I am entitled to get laid on my birthday! Right?! The sad part about it was HE CAN'T GET IT UP!!! <sob!> Up until now, he still hasn't texted or contacted me maybe because nahihiya siya.. or napahiya siya. Oh well..

Yesterday, I was on this channel called #makaticity on IRC. Matt frequents there. He greeted me a Happy Birthday. I still hate him. I still am angry with him. Mantra ko pa rin sa kanya is MAGSAMA SILA NG GF NYANG TANGA!  The guys were actually inviting me to go sa grand EB nila sa Watering Hole sa Ortigas. God! Inuman na naman!!! But I declined the offer since I have work.

Better late than never…

Written May 14, 2007 

It's my birthday today. So far, I could only count three people who've wished me a Happy Birthday.. my mom, CJ and Troa. Yeha, Troa. He's nice. He's nice enough to keep. But with everything going on with our lives, I'm not even sure that we'd be together. He has his shit to deal with, I have mine.

Enough! I'm getting melancholic again.

Oh yeah, Erwin wanted to be added to my list of men.. Hahahaha.. he exists as hellabon2000 on my YM list. We went out for a drink last Saturday. Before the liquor ban went into effect on Sunday. Hahahaha.. Ala lang.. Kulitan to the max.. <smiles> We met at Gloria Jean's. He's cool. He looks like TL JB. Hahahha! He's 5'6". Slim. A Capoeirista's body. Very nice.. Yum! Yum! Teehee!

We're planning on meeting up this Wednesday and play strip poker! Hahahaha! Nahh… we'll just play truth or dare. Some of his dares: stick my lips on his for 5mins. (So NOT a dare!); kiss for 30mins. (I can do that! EASY!) Hahahah!

My dare: he has to wear a lacey thong! Hahahahah! He said he'll do it only if I stick my lips on a butt cheek! Ewww……….. Gross! Hahahah! I told him my lips are going nowhere near his ass! HAHAHAH!

Kulet namin noh? ;)

Nagtatampo..

Yesterday was my birthday. I can only count by my fingers the number of people who greeted me a HAPPY BIRTHDAY yesterday. <sigh>

Troa greeted my early in the morning. CJ. My mom. My sisters. Karen. Nimfa. Deedee. Carlo. Ate Ana. Mitch. See?

it’s the little things…

I approved CJ's testimonials on friendster today. Wla lang. Maybe because I'm feeling emo about tomorrow.

I'll be 25 officially tomorrow.. Ayokong tumanda!!!!

Letting Go..

Blog sabbatical again for two days. Mainly because IT has blocked http://i.ph !!! ARRGGGHHH!!!

I HATE YOU, IT PEOPLE!!!

<sigh> Here's what's happened for the past couple of days.

Wednesday night. Met up with Carlo. Went to his place. The guy is deprived, I tell you. Deprived! <sigh> Carlo was this guy that I had a HUGE crush on, waaayyy back in college. We lost touch during the years but he was able to track me down by my email address. We used to work in the same company before but he's with a different account that time. I had already forgotten about him. Then, I remembered. Because way back then, he made me feel special. And he was my ideal sort. And then he broke my heart. It's a cycle. He'll contact me and break my heart over and over again. Not this time though. This time, I realized that he doesn't even come close to Troa or Mitch. I realized that he is nothing to me.

But one question keeps popping in mind. One question that I've asked time and again. I asked him what do I mean in his life. What am I to him? I even asked him bluntly if I'm just a booty call, a toy.. He replied that I am neither. But then he says that he doesn't know how to describe what I am to him. <sigh>

Is it better not knowing?