Blog sabbatical again for two days. Mainly because IT has blocked http://i.ph !!! ARRGGGHHH!!!
I HATE YOU, IT PEOPLE!!!
<sigh> Here's what's happened for the past couple of days.
Wednesday night. Met up with Carlo. Went to his place. The guy is deprived, I tell you. Deprived! <sigh> Carlo was this guy that I had a HUGE crush on, waaayyy back in college. We lost touch during the years but he was able to track me down by my email address. We used to work in the same company before but he's with a different account that time. I had already forgotten about him. Then, I remembered. Because way back then, he made me feel special. And he was my ideal sort. And then he broke my heart. It's a cycle. He'll contact me and break my heart over and over again. Not this time though. This time, I realized that he doesn't even come close to Troa or Mitch. I realized that he is nothing to me.
But one question keeps popping in mind. One question that I've asked time and again. I asked him what do I mean in his life. What am I to him? I even asked him bluntly if I'm just a booty call, a toy.. He replied that I am neither. But then he says that he doesn't know how to describe what I am to him. <sigh>
Is it better not knowing?
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well…what does he mean to you?
Posted by diana at May 12, 2007, 7:36 am