I haven’t written anything new lately.. all my thoughts are basically just in my mind, nothing on paper.
I have been busy. Well, not too busy to write obviously but just too lazy to do everything.. prolly why I’m getting fat. All I do is sit in front of the PC and watch Criminal Minds.
*sigh*
I need to get my life in order.
Blog sabbatical again for two days. Mainly because IT has blocked http://i.ph !!! ARRGGGHHH!!!
I HATE YOU, IT PEOPLE!!!
<sigh> Here's what's happened for the past couple of days.
Wednesday night. Met up with Carlo. Went to his place. The guy is deprived, I tell you. Deprived! <sigh> Carlo was this guy that I had a HUGE crush on, waaayyy back in college. We lost touch during the years but he was able to track me down by my email address. We used to work in the same company before but he's with a different account that time. I had already forgotten about him. Then, I remembered. Because way back then, he made me feel special. And he was my ideal sort. And then he broke my heart. It's a cycle. He'll contact me and break my heart over and over again. Not this time though. This time, I realized that he doesn't even come close to Troa or Mitch. I realized that he is nothing to me.
But one question keeps popping in mind. One question that I've asked time and again. I asked him what do I mean in his life. What am I to him? I even asked him bluntly if I'm just a booty call, a toy.. He replied that I am neither. But then he says that he doesn't know how to describe what I am to him. <sigh>
Is it better not knowing?
| Sozzi -Dawson's Cr… |
After 2hours and 25mins plus 2 sticks of yosi later, I feel a lot better.
I realized that life goes on. Mine and his. Besides, goodbye doesn't really mean that it's the end but only the beginning of another chapter.
I realized that I am not really alone in this world. I just need to reach out to people.
I realized that there's no pleasing other people who have already set their minds to hate you.
I realized that my bill is now more or less 800php because of local call charges and it's only the 23rd! <groans>
And most importantly, I realized that I do not need him to complete me because I complete myself.
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Damn! What can I say about me? Hmm.. Let's see.. I am:
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Hello! I only came to appreciate you for your fun and engulfing story. Stories like this are a really awesome way to assist me in English, but I think I got the story ok Thanks again!
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echusmee!!! Nagbabalik!!! winks*
hello. 
can i add you on Plurk?
bloghopping!
ate pans, favor! pakiboto naman po ang planet puto sa poll dito- http://salaswildthoughts.blogspot.com/ maraming salamat!
was here, again =) ate. is it possible kaya if we xlink? nice site e, hihihi. c u =)
hi. nice site. happy weekend =)
nice..
hehehe.. sorry naman.. update ko na pwamis!!! 
eto pla link ate pans o, http://planetputoniyods.blogspot.com see you there! ehehe
ate pans, baka naman gusto mong bumisita minsa sa planet puto at ng ma-update mo na rin ang link ko dito? ahaha.
hi pansay! juz dropin by. 
visiting U
was here..
blog hop!
Halu, salamat sa pagbisita….! Ingatz….! =D
